Mommy’s World

My dearly beloved…it’s so lonely without you..
Everything is just so different…..
The day  become  more gloomy
The night become darker
The clock become slower
The whole world become quiet

My dearly beloved…., I remember you every minute of the day
From the moment I wake up until I rest my head on th pillow
Everything reminds me of you

Without you, I don’t care about my hair or the way I look

Without you, I don’t care if I wear the same shirt from morning till the next day

Without you, I don’t have to think what food I cook today

Without you, I don’t have someone who can listen to me about the book I just read

and nobody will reply to me about things I don’t understand

Without you, no one smile to my jokes

Without you ,I have to "work" with the kids around the clock

Without you I have to nurse the baby while having halaqah…

My dearly beloved everything is more challenging without you. Period.

But, don’t worry my dear……

InsyaAllah, I will be OK. With your prayer and Allah’s help I’m going to be just fine.

When you comeback my dear.., I’ll cook better dinner for you

and I’ll be a better wife and companion to you. I will be more sabr with our kids and I hope you will heard less complains from me about everything..:)

I have been reading since you were gone. I just realize, Our life is such a short time. Alhamdulillah, Allah still give time for us to live in this world. But we have to remember, it is a short time.  We have to use it for better cause. Being a slave of Allah, it’s our duty to live our life better each day. We don’t know when it’s over. Are we prepare my dear? I don’t think I’m ready. I have to use my remaining time better and wisely. Let’s make it happen my dear. Let’s fix our life to become a better person, better parents, better family member, better neighbor, and most importantly better slave of Allah.

My dearly beloved, On the first night you come to me , InsyaAllah, what I’ll do is to sprinkle a bit of water in your face, and wake you from your dream, and together we’ll perform the Qiyamul Lail. Let’s fill our nights with beautiful things for our garden in akhirah.

I love you with all my heart.